Barcelona

Flying to Barcelona right now. I miss you more than anything right now. Will you please hold me? I’d do anything to have you near right now. It’s so miserable being so far apart from you. More and more, I begin to realize how much I need you in my life. I’m willing to do whatever I can to stay close to you. My heart aches right now at the thought of you. My body longs for your touch and only your touch. My eyes need to see your face. My hands want to stroke your body. My lips need to kiss your lips. I need the smell of your presence. I need the sincerity of your eyes gazing into mine. Are you thinking of me these days that I am away? Are you wondering where I am and how I am doing? Something inside of me stirs constantly for you. I don’t know why. I don’t understand it. But it is there. And I cannot escape it. It’s been 5 years now. And everyday, I feel more and more drawn to you. Sometimes I hate feeling the way I do for you. Maybe because it scares me—it scares me that I could care for someone so much. That I could love you this much. I feel so much pain right now. My strength is a shallow pool—all I want is you. I wish you were here to play with me. To tease me and get rough with me and be silly and gross with me. I wish we could listen to music together and watch movies and read together. So much of me is you. I hope one day you will realize this. I miss your laughter and your beautiful smile. I hope I see you soon.