green cotton stems

For me. Not for you

Why did you have to come?

YOU invaded MY life!

Don’t you remember?

I didn’t ask to know you

You asked to know me

I didn’t want to talk to you

I wasn’t even interested

You butted yourself into 

My life

You nested yourself here

I didn’t want you before.And I don’t want you now.

What I want is for things to go

Back to the way they were.

Before you ever existed.

I don’t want to know you

I don’t want you in my life. 

I swore off this kind of shit

And here you are putting it 

Right back into my life.

Who the hell do you think you are?

You think that you are so goddamn 

Perfect. Your head filled with incredulous

Lies. Lies I told to make you feel better.

This is my life, damn it. 

What gives you the right to 

Take over?

Go back to where you came from

Let me go. Stop answering. Because I’m going

To stop calling.

We never did exist. And now we never will. 

I don’t care if you’re sick.

Being sick has nothing to do with it

I’ve been sick all my life

It doesn’t stop me.

You hide behind it because you

Are too afraid to face reality and the world 

It comes with. Wake up and smell the coffee.

She’s gone. But worse yet…now I’m gone.

Don’t beg. Don’t feel sorry. Because

You drove me away. 

I don’t know her side of the story. 

But here’s news for you. I don’t care.

I’ve lived my life of tears and broken hearts and regrets. 

I just wasted time again- on you.

I’m sorry. I won’t say I

Will take it back. But I am not happy 

With the outcome. You never were 

Different. You were just another 

Asshole in different jeans and 

Darker hair. 

I was the stupid one. I fell for you

Stupid little tricks. 

You got me. What do you want now?

You think you deserve a cookie? A 

Medal? Screw you!

Wish I had never let you

Have the best of me.

In any case

It was never meant to be. 

Or I wouldn’t be here.