the Bellows of confusion

So f-ing confused.  Where are the answers? Don't you ever hear me begging on my knees, surrounded by a pool of tears?? Why can't you hear me cry for help?  Wy do you torture me like this? Why? Why?

What did I do to deserve this? Why are you punishing me? Why do you make me so sick? Why?  Won't you ever be there for me?  I'm so lost; so lonely; so confused.  My body and soul is empty.  I can't take it anymore.  I need to see the light at the end of the tunnel but I'm still wearing blindfolds and it's pitch black. Please, I beg of you-show me mercy.  Give me peace of mind. Lead me, guide me.  Show me the way.  Teach me and I will follow.  I can't do it by myself.  I'm just not that strong.  I just keep faltering.  I need you.  Please.  Please, G.  I beg of you.  Hear me, listen to my prayers.  I need answers.  And only you can provide them.  Please, please don't leave me here to suffer by myself any longer.  I'm not sure how much more I can take.