Maintaining a state of brainless activity, and empty thoughts.
I experience a vacant state of being, as nothing stirs in my mind.
A stagnant hollow mass. You’ve successfully drained al of my energy and emotion from my body. You left me with a deserted soul.
I suffer from my own blank stares and expressionless conversations.
Where did my mind escape to? Everything I’ve known or have come to know about myself is absent. I feel purposeless—aimless. I am unresponsive…slow…and stuck in a lifeless fixation of nothingness. I would thank you for this rather bare state of being you seem to have inflicted upon me—but that would only commend you for your dirty deeds, and right now, you deserve no such praise.
I am so empty that I cannot even express any feeling, remorse, or anger toward you right now. Even this, would usually infuriate and frustrate me, but I remain unaffected because my mind is completely and utterly blank—full of nothing.
I cannot feel. I cannot think. My mind is blocked, perhaps by my own fear of being hurt anymore, should reality begin to show its true self to me. My world is sedentary. I feel as if I just lost the battle—one that I was never even aware of its presence, or even that it had begun.
And now, I am shocked by its outcome. Fazed….about what to do next. But nothing, I blink hoping to sprout thought. I want my mind to think, but it produces nothing.
All of my thoughts have been stolen—ripped out of my mind. Caged by whom? You or me? A selfish act or an act to protect?
I want to think. I resent that someone is keeping me from thinking. I need to think so that I can figure out what my life is about. I need to understand these emotions and feelings—and I cannot do so when you are blocking my mind from its access.
I resent your control. It is subtle, but it is there. I need to figure you out. But it’s going to take a long time.
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